Tuesday, April 28, 2009

east of the middle.

the Way - الطريق
Asking, Learning, Understanding - االطّلب , التعلّم , الفهم

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the Travelers - الرحالون

Maddie - مادّي

Laya - لاية


Jessica - جيسيكا

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Beirut, oh Beirut -
بيروت يا بيروت "Beirut" - Nadia Tueini

Beirut of the hundred palaces and Beyte of the stones
Where people come from everywhere to build up statues
Which make men kneel down in prayer and make wars roar.

In Beirut in every house dwells a different idea
In Beirut every word is a parade
In Beirut men lay down thoughts and caravans

Whether she is a nun or a sorcerer
or both together...

Adored or cursed
Blood thirsty or blessed with holy water
Phoenician, Arab, or anybody
A Levantine with multiple vertigos
Like those strange flowers fragile on their stalks
Beirut is in the Orient the last sanctuary
Where man is clad in the color of light.

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the Road to Damascus - الشارع إلى دمشقThere are no words to describe my love for this city.

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the "holy land" - الأرض المقدسة
The entire time I traveled throughout Israel and Palestine, I always felt drawn to the question, "Is this all we are really fighting for?" I have yet to find an answer for that question.

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Monday, April 20, 2009

a jaunt ends.

LevantaPalooza rolls closed, and I am really excited to go home. It's been an adventure, and I have interesting stories to tell. Some bad, some good, but in the end, the Dream lives on.

And less than a month left in Cairo until I head stateside. Which is growing more terrifying than I thought, and I am both dreading leaving and excited to leave. It's an odd simultaneous tearing that is located somewhere around my stomach. I can't tell which urge is stronger today.

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Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Levant-a-Palooza 2009

Cairo - Beirut - Damascus - Amman - Jerusalem - Ramallah - Bethlehem - Amman - Cairo.
yellah, ya habibi.

القاهرة - بيروت - دمشق - عمان - القدس - رام الله - بيت لحم - عمان - القاهرة
يا الله, يا حبيبي

إن شاء الله - - Insha'Allah.

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Wednesday, January 7, 2009

the Adventure Hat.

The Adventure Hat: (n) a hat like object worn in adventurous situations or to create an atmosphere of adventure when situations are already ridiculous. For example: Siwa Oasis, Egypt. Where, during a New Year's Eve party, you are forced into participating in a bellydancing show.
And take obligatory tourist pictures.
And make friends with the locals, who take you on tours of their town by Donkey Cart, introduce you to their families, impart local sensibilities, and tell you that you, and your hair, cause problems. This one's name is Gom3a.
And go sandboarding in the Great Sand Sea in the Sahara with some Bedouin men that sing you Arabic love songs.
And have breathtaking incredible moments. Like watching the sunset over the dunes and remembering how incredibly small you are. What a way to ring in the new year.

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Monday, December 8, 2008

Prophetic Grounds

"Who broke your heart? Tell me this - I have to know."

He was spinning my cold coffee cup between his hands staring intently - alternating between me and my empty cup. He told me that he could see my heart - and it wasn't dirty but it was dark. Dark with burning secrets that I have carried for so long - on my winding path. One of the many paths that I had - some were short and easy and some were long and dıffıcult but all were true and clear. And there was a rabbit following a lıght. And two strong fıgures - a flame breathıng dragon and a horse - were facıng each other. It wasn't bad - but just two opposıng forces. Or people.
And on my saucer - after lettıng ıt drıp ınto the empty cup and whısperıng Turkısh over ıt - there was a crescent moon. He saıd that ıt was only for the Turkısh - but there ıt was. Sayıng that my wısh wıll come true - though ıt wıll be long and dıffıcult. Be patıent he saıd. But ıt wıll come.

"Tell me. Who ıs ıt that broke your heart?"

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Sunday, December 7, 2008

Istanbul not Constantınople

Im ın love wıth Istanbul. There I saıd ıt. In love. Just lıke everyone saıd I would be.

Thıs cıty ıs nothıng lıke I expected. I dıdnt really know what to expect - but ıt was such a surprıse. A pleasant one at that. The only way I can thınk of explaınıng ıt ıs a mıxture of Parıs and Rabat and Valencıa - but I dont know ıf that does ıt any justıce. The cıty ıs so green and smells lıke pıne trees and roastıng chestnuts and the Medıterranean. It ıs so clean. I forgot how clean cıtıes can be - Istanbul ıs a fabulous remınder. And when the salaht sounds - ıt ıs so much more beautıful than ın Caıro - and ıt echoes from the top of the hıll startıng wıth the Blue Mosque and downward through the cıty. And ıt ıs so loud that ıt kınd of vıbrates ın your chest - lıke ıt was so beautıful ıt was grabbıng a hold of your heart.

Yesterday was our fırst day - Im travelıng wıth Sarah and Jenny - two roommates - Sophıa - a frıend - and sort of my other roommate - Chrıstına (she ıs travelıng for awhıle and wıll be splıttıng from us soon) and her frıend - Katıe. Our orıgınal plan was to overload wıth the basıcs - the Ayasofya and the Blue Mosque and all that - but decıded to start slow. So we went to the hamam - a Turkısh bath. It was an ıncredıble experıence - our hamam was over 500 years old and so beautıful. I got scrubbed lıke no other and a massage and a facıal - all of whıch were worth the kınd of prıcey ınvestment - my skın feels ıncredıble and ıt got me so ıncredıbly excıted to take on the cıty ın a sort of new skın. It also was one of those ın the moment experıences that you cant really shake - so absolutely amazıng.

For lunch - we had thıs delıcıous thıng called Kumpır - a baked potato that ıs whıpped ın the skın wıth butter and salt and some kınd of delıcıous cheese and then topped wıth a whole mess of delıcıousness - couscous and corn and peas and chılı sauce and pıckles and mystery meat and olıves and such. So ıncredıbly good. And of course some Turkısh delıghts - whıch are much better than I ever remember them beıng.

We then found out that all the bazaars were closıng for Eıd - whıch makes sense but was totally unexpected - so we rushed through the Grand Bazaar before ıt closed for the week and made some mad purchasıng. Well - some more than others. I kept ıt to a relatıve mınımum compared to the other gırls. But ıt was fun and an ıncredıble space and so excıtıng.

Then we - beıng exhausted - came back and had some dınner and decıded to go on a pub crawl ın Taksım - a more modern part of the cıty - wıth Chrıstınas hostel. It was fun - we went from a bar that played terrıble versıons of bad musıc wıth a lıve band to a rock bar that had a sınger ın a jean vest and long haır sıngıng the Fınal Countdown - among other tunes - to Turkısh headbangers to an ınsanely packed club where the balconıes bounced wıth the dancıng people. It was fun and kınd of absolutely ınsane - but all I payed was two lıre for the whole shebang - not a bad deal.

Well Im off to contınue my love affaır wıth thıs cıty.

Love from Istanbul.

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Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Epic Success.

Last night, I was notified by the fantastic Karen Pierce of the Georgia Tech International Plan that I had received $750 from the IP Stipend program to spend as my nomading deemed fit.

Right now, I'm sipping on Turkish coffee and purchasing my tickets to Turkey with that new found cash. I only thought it appropriate.

My Cairene nomading lives on.

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Saturday, June 14, 2008

the salt sea air

I never realized how much I missed the wind. Something so simple, but in Cairo, it is a luxury. And in Alexandria, there was a beautiful abundance that smelled like the sea.It is so interesting to see a city that is such a compilation of cultures and histories. The ruins there are made up of layers of former civilizations, from the Upper Kingdom of Ancient Egypt, to the Greek-Egyptian hybrid in the time of Alexander the Great, the Ptolemaic dynasty, the Roman invasion of Julius Cesar, the Mamluk dynasty, and the violent birth of Mohamed Ali's modern Egypt, and the last days of the Egyptian kingdom.

The library is beautiful, and meant to symbolize the rising sun out of the Mediterranean Sea, poring light and knowledge from the center of the ancient world.The Fortress of Qaitbay, built from the stones of the Lighthouse of Alexandria, one of the seven wonders of the ancient world, houses the memory of the massacre that ended the Mamluk dynasty and held off the impending Ottoman oppression, creating Modern Egypt and the beginning of kings.
Now the city is the beacon of Egyptian relaxation, with the Mediterranean bringing in that beautiful wind over beaches and buildings, mixing the smell of sea salt and shisha.

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Tuesday, October 9, 2007

Parlez-vous Parisienne?

on the steps of Sacre Coeur, the whole of Paris lies at your feet.

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Monday, July 23, 2007

if you didn't know - Rajhastan is a little sandy.

if you ever ride a camel, be prepared for your ass to hurt. a lot. (especially if you are the lucky one to fall off of the camel like me.)
it is an incredible experience, no doubt. you get to see a great deal of how desert life works, understand the isolation and, at times, ultimate peace of the desert - disturbed only by the bells of your camel, and my favorite part - getting to hang out with some of the coolest people from around the world you will ever meet.

we started out from Bikaner, the sixteen of us traveling twelve hours by dusty train from Chandigarh, not knowing what to expect. other than the sore ass of course. we traveled into the desert, listening to the wind, the bells on the camels, and each other. especially each other. this trip, though mostly painful, sandy, and exhausting, really showed me my favorite part of being on a traineeship - the people you meet. these people that share the frustration, the excitement, the discovery, the experience that a traineeship can offer you. you cannot imagine the bonding that occurs when you find yourselves halfway around the world - lost and trying to find your way. i know, for sure, that these people will be friends of mine for the rest of my life. already - we are planning trips to visit each other's countries, reunions in Las Vegas, and how much we will miss each other when this experience ends.

how can i define a traineeship and this experience i have had? i'm not sure, it is hard to define. it isn't about some heroic feat, some incredible change we are making in the world - it is about our lives running parallel for awhile, and getting to experience it with each other. it is not only about the stories we share while we sit around a fire in the desert, or on a train braving the winds blowing sand off the dunes, or about the changes we have found in ourselves, but also the stories we will keep forever when we leave this place and when we leave each other.
the traineeship is all about the story, the impact, and the experience. and in the years to come, i will look back on this summer in India, this summer i spent on the other side of the world, and know for sure that it will have been one of the greatest of my life, and that every person i have met has changed my life in some way.
and i think that this trip to the desert, on the back of a camel, was when i truly realized it.

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Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Little Tibet

A weekend excursion to the Himalayas and a small village called McLeod Ganj led to some thinking. This village, the home to the Dalai Lama and the exiled Tibetan government, led to some thinking. Mostly about the meaning of home. I thought about the six weeks that have passed since I had left my home, willingly and enthusiastically setting out to impact the world. But knowing the history of Tibet, what would it be like if I could never go home? The life of a refugee is impossible to imagine or define - these people will never have a home. They may one day return to Lhasa, perhaps even claim the province as a sovereign nation, but it will never again be their home. Too much has happened, too much has changed their life for them to consider anything home.

And what about me? What if the changes that have occurred in me during the past six weeks, and there have been many, are too great? Will I be able to call Atlanta home after living and experiencing all that I have in India? Reading about other's experiences about reverse culture shock scares the hell out of me, and hearing about the changes that have occurred in others (to a negative effect) after being abroad scares me even more. Will everyone accept the new me? Will the new me even fit in my American life?
So in this beautiful, incredible, even spiritual place - all I could think about were the changes that India has carved into me. Sometimes I wish I could just shut my brain up from thinking so much, but I know that is what makes me human. I just wish I wasn't so damn vulnerable.

But McLeod Ganj is beautiful, and the people I experienced it with were incredible. A day of trekking and talking with Buddhist monks at the foot of a Himalayan waterfall, reciting mantras in the home of the Dalai Lama, and listening to him teach his disciples was followed by a night of shenanigans. We rented a house in a small village about five kilometers north of McLeod, called Dharamkot, and lived like kings for a night - drinking, dancing, and talking about everything and nothing until 3 in the morning. Followed by spooning, lots and lots of spooning. I woke to the clouds surrounding the house, the most delicious chai I have ever tasted, and a cool breeze with hints of Himalayan rain.


The trip back to Chandigarh was harder than you can imagine.

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Monday, June 18, 2007

the Himalayas.

Weekend nomading ends in Shimla - a Himalayan town five hours north of Chandigarh by a nauseating, swerving, crowded bus. It was beautiful and relaxing - and a perfect example of India's diversity.

Also home to the Jakhu Monkey Temple, a shrine for Hanuman - the monkey god who carried the mountain to save Rama's wife, Sita. It made me want to read the Ramayana.


I think the best feeling about Shimla, however, was how relaxed I was. Nothing mattered except sitting and watching the sun move over the Himalayas. Forget the nauseating bus ride, the inability to sleep while sharing a bed with three other girls, waking up cold for the first time in months, and the soreness of climbing through the mountain town.

it was a place out of a dream,
and it makes kind of wish I hadn't woken up.

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Thursday, June 14, 2007

Amritsar, Attari, and a change of mind.

My company demands that I have a "cultural experience" and travel throughout India. I say ok, I can do that. This weekend? Attari and Amritsar.

Attari
A short stop in Amritsar to deposit our things at the beautiful Golden Temple, we were back in the taxi to drive to Attari, a small village on the border of Punjab and Pakistan and the home of the infamous, even comical, Closing of the Border Ceremony. A ritual that has been practiced since the creation of the border in the 40's, this ceremony draws thousands to celebrate it. So, packed in with thousands of Indians in the 120 degree sunset, we watched guards goosestep towards the gate to taunt the Pakistani guards on the other side, shaking their hands and heads and cheering about the greatness of India. Hindustan - Jindabad! Pakistanis stand cheering on their side of the gate, waving the green crescent over the crowd. For an hour, this happens. It is difficult to explain its purpose or point - but there is such a great emotional aspect to this seemingly superfluous ceremony. Nothing is gained or lost in this showing of pride, but it is such a fantastic and surreal exhibition of Indian nationalism that is almost impossible to understand.

Another discovery in Attari was the surreal aspect of being a foreigner in India. The novelty of white skin and red hair is something that you don’t realize until you have people asking to touch them, to photograph them, or to ask if it is real. People snuck around with camera phones to steal photographs of me my white travel companions. Women around us asked for “snaps” (the Indian term for photographs) – and two girls stole pictures of me for the duration of the ceremony (so I stole pictures of them too). My Indian friend called us “sillahbrahtas” while laughing and taking pictures. It is unbelievable.

Amritsar
Dirty, sweaty, and exhausted – we traveled back to Amritsar. After quickly showering (ie. Bucket of cold water) – we went to the community kitchen for dinner.
A note on the Sikhs: everything about their beliefs is communal. Their religion promotes hospitality, charity, education, and selflessness. Known for their skills as warriors, the Sikhs consistently put others before themselves, giving lives, money, and time to their cause. And this, unlike some Christian practices I have experienced, is not limited to those within their religion. I was graciously accepted, given food and a place to stay, and encouraged to take pictures to “show the beauty of their religion and temple”. So, dinner was fittingly served in a large room to all who asked for it. Everyone receives a plate, a bowl, and a spoon and sits on the floor – a practice started by a Guru who refused to sit above his disciples. Everyone is served as much food and water as they can eat, cooked and served by volunteers to the temple and traveling pilgrims.
We then walked into the temple complex, a large square filled in the center with a deep pond, each of the four sides a marble walkway filled with pilgrims, either praying with their foreheads bowed to the ground or preparing to sleep in the presence of their holiest site. In the center of the pond lies the Golden Temple, and it is incredibly beautiful.
When you walk inside it, almost everything incorporates some kind of prayer in it, the wallpaper, the doorframes, the stairs, the chandelier. The Devangari is wearing away in some spots where people rub their fingers over it to complete the prayer.
We entered the temple at night, right as the Guru Granth Sahib (the holy book of Sikhism and its eleventh Guru) was being closed. It is an incredible ceremony: as the final prayer is sung, men compete to carry it on their heads to a solid gold palanquin, waving oxtail fans above it. Women reach to touch it and everyone attempts to support the palanquin in some way as it is taken to its nightly resting place. Then pilgrims compete to clean the temple, sweeping and polishing the gold.
We returned from there to the room where we were staying, and slept for the few hours between then and 4:30 in the morning to catch the sunrise hitting the gold of the temple. We awoke and sipped chai as the singers called the Sikhs to morning prayer. And walking through the trough of water to clean your feet and enter the temple, it is a breath taking sight. The first rays are just hitting the top of the temple, and it begins to glow, and the first prayer is so beautiful – it was one of those rare moments you experience. Something so special and secret that you want capture it in some way, but in no way is a feeling like that possible to write in words or take in photographs. It made me think of the sunset in Morocco over the Atlantic, listening to the salah echoing from the mosque behind me, and watching women mourn in Rome’s cobblestone streets, arms raised and tears streaming, during Pope John Paul II’s funeral. Moments that seem impossible and unreal, but are happening around you and in some small way, changing you.
We sat for maybe three hours, just watching the Sikhs. Something interesting that they do is bathe in the pond (which is filled with huge, brightly colored fish), a form of holy water cleansing. And, like any religion, the Sikhs preserve important artifacts including the body of a Guru, their weapons that fought for the freedom of Sikhism, and, most interestingly, trees that important Sikhs prayed under. One tree is especially important, it is said that the Guru that decided to build the Golden Temple bathed there during his epiphany, and those who bathe there now are granted enlightenment and clarity in their paths in life.
There is also a museum of paintings and photographs of important moments in Sikh history, from its creation to the present, including depictions of their persecution by Muslims (including dismembering children and stringing their limbs into necklaces to hang around their parents’ necks), the destruction and massacre of Operation Blue Star in 1984 by Indira Gandhi’s troops, and Sikhs who had roles in creating an independent India.
The temple was an incredible and unique experience. I even had a woman ask me to bless her little girl with beauty. Another little girl came up and counted my toes, and when I thought this was strange I looked at hers - she had six on each foot.
But we traveled onward, visiting the Jallianwala Bagh garden, the home of the 1919 massacre in which British troops opened fire on peaceful protesters and instigated Indian unity towards independence. The garden is walled, and there was no escape. Bullet holes are preserved, as well as the well that hundreds of Indians threw themselves down in order to escape. It is strange to see the well, and as I was looking into it, it had the air of a crypt or open grave. It was interesting to experience a city that has such a bloody past and is so influential in the shaping of modern India. Midori (my Japanese coworker and roommate) said she was afraid to go to sleep that night because she thought she would have nightmares about Amritsar.
Onto something happier, we then visited Jinder’s (another roommate and coworker, but from India) cousin’s family. They fed us a ridiculous amount of food and talked about why we came to India and what we were looking for here. When Indians travel, they said, they are always searching for something – whether it is spiritual, economic, or to visit family. They were confused why I would leave the United States, a place where they said that any Indian would go in a minute if given the chance, to come to a place like India, working for very little. I couldn’t explain it in terms they could really understand, I’m still working out how to explain it in terms that I understand. There was a little girl there that wanted to know all about America, and told me that it was her dream to go there. She even showed me her coin collection of two quarters (one of which was made into a ring by welding it onto a ring of copper wire) and a penny. I gave her a dollar and told her to visit me in America. It was so amazing to listen to them – they are incredible people and have definitely shaped my perception of culture and hospitality in India.

Then, its back home. And it’s funny that I feel at home here – but I do.

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